What happens when you leave your comfort zone?

Eat. Shame. Guilt. Sadness. Anger. Exercise. Restrict. "Happy". Control. Binge. Shame. Guilt. Sadness. Anger. Exercise. "Happy". Control.....rinse and repeat over and over and over again.

I became comfortable with this sadness. I became comfortable with not taking charge of my life. I became comfortable with yo-yo dieting because I hated my body even though I was so, so far from truly comfortable and comforted in my own body.

Let's talk crash diets...I did the salad diet, I did the cabbage diet, I did the eat only salads AND workout diet, I did the smoothie diet, I did  the fasting, I did the massive-amount-of-exercise. I took fad diet pills and I was even prescribed medication to lose weight. My weight has fluctuated more times than I can count because I have never been consistent because being consistent meant releasing that false sense of control and owning up to the truth.

Guess what? My body will never look like the image I had in my head for years. Guess what else?

I wouldn't have it any other way. 

For the first time in my life, I am owning up to who I am and accepting who I am. All of my curves. All of my flaws. All of my blessings. They are all a part of who I am. In accepting myself, I am being consistent for the second time in my life. I have been healthy only one other time in my life when I did so naturally. The difference is that then, unlike now, I became healthy in a natural way but it wasn't out of love for myself. It was an obsession. It was an escape.

Now, I  exercise because I love myself and I want these legs which have trampled over so many trials and tribulations to carry me as long as they will go. I eat healthfully because I want my over flowing heart to continue thump-thump-thumping for years to come. I life this lifestyle now because I want to keep sharing the joy with people in my life who I never want to live without.

Be healthy because you are in love with life and because you love yourself completely. We are on this journey together <3